being with a guy for 3 years you think would have a dramatic impact on you if the relatioship ended...but not for me
i started off dating this guy when i was in 10th grade. i met him on the beach at my beach club because he was a lifeguard there. so we started talking and i found out that he was 2 years older then me and he was from Valley Stream/Hewlett. he was starting his senior year and i was starting my sophomore year of high school.
so the next thing i know...we are almost three years down the road and still together...
November 20th would have been our three year mark but sadly we didnt make it that far... i was the one to break it off because of his lack of maturity and lieing. i was constantly being promised things and constantly being let down. and i was sick of it....completely fed up and FURIOUS!...i felt like i was going crazy....he was sending me over the edge and i was getting a lil to close to that edge for my on comfort so i had to end things for my own mental health and wel being.
the thing that i think upsets me the most is that im not even remotely upset about any of it...
figure this...i had to pack up 3 years worth of stuff out of my room and from everywhere...ever picture, stuffed animal, piece of jewelery, everything...had to get packed up and out away and i think the only time i felt a little upset was when i was putting prom pictures away from his prom...that was the most upsetting to me because thats when the times were good and there were no bad times and bad memories....just one happy little couple....but that only lasts for so long>>....
so i really think something is wrong here....y arent i upset about ending a 3 year relationship with someone i supposedly loved?....
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I'm sorry to hear of your unfortunate break up but I'm happy for you. In my opinion, you really made the right decision for yourself. I also don't think anything is wrong with you either, I actually think you are very strong for not letting it ruin you. Being strong is always something that's good to have; not many women are that way. So I'm happy for you =)
yea i agree with julie. you're clearly really strong. it has nothing to do with the fact that you didnt love him, you just love yourself more.. i know that sounds soo corny but its true so congradulations on being free!!!!
Hey I agree with Jule & Kait...you're a really strong person and don't need a guy to take that away from you...when I broke up with my boyfriend last year we were going out for a while not as long as your bf and u but it was long I wasn't upset at all...just the 1st 203 days after the break-up I felt like something was missing...but it was jsut the fact I was used to talking to him every nigh and in school
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